I’m sorry I’ve been absent friends. It’s been a stressful 2 weeks. It started out with sciatica problems the day of retrieval. I was in pain for 7 days. It’s still sore but no longer shooting pain. Then I thought my PIO shots were going well but on day 10….welts all over my backside. They’ve been there for 5 days now, are huge, and itch…a lot.
I’ve been spotting off and on for 3 days now and have been feeling really down. Today is 12 days post 3 day transfer and I got a BFFN on a home pregnancy test. So I don’t have much hope that my beta will be positive on Tuesday. To say I’m crushed would be an understatement. I tested Wednesday as well with the same results. I’ve been crying a lot for 3 days.
I don’t know if I can go through this again. I don’t have many eggs left and the chances of pregnancy are not good. I’m sad, I’m angry, and I want to know why me? Why can I not have a child? Why can some people get pregnant at the drop of a hat but we got through all these procedures and still aren’t? It isn’t fair and it’s shaking me in ways I don’t like.