Well it’s been a whole month since I last posted. There isn’t much to post when I’m not cycling and I’ve been down in the dumps because of being delayed. I’ve also been down because while I am so, so happy that several of my friends who have infertility difficulties have gotten pregnant in the last month, it just makes me sadder to think it’s probably never going to happen for me. I see others who get pregnant on their first IUI cycle or even their first IVF cycle and I feel jealous and sad for myself. I hate feeling that way but it is what it is.
So yesterday I had my third IV Infusion. Let me tell you, these things are adding up price wise. The actual medication is $35 with my co-pay but running the IV and the doctors visit runs close to $300. When I thought I was cycling in June I figured I’d have 2 infusions, pay $600, and be on my merry way. Now I’m going to have to have at least 4 and pay around $1200 during the summer when I don’t get a paycheck. Infertility is so great!
Anyhow, after the fiasco of the IV infusion last time the head nurse got me herself. I had no wait in the waiting room, she took me right back, and told me to get comfortable. There’s supposed to be no food or drink in the back but she always lets me bring in something during my infusions. So I got myself settled and she came in, got my IV running then put in the infusion.
I cautiously asked how the lab was going. She turned and smiled before speaking so I knew it was good news. She said as of last week they are on track to be finished the first week of August. The old filtration system is out and they are currently building the new one which will take 3-4 weeks. In the process they also convinced the university to buy them 2 brand new, state of the art incubators as well so maybe it’s a good thing that we were delayed. It sounds like they are updating much of their equipment which can only help my cause.
The nurse then told me that they were repainting the waiting room, getting new floors, and stripping the wallpaper. They haven’t been able to do it because of cycles going on but since everyone is delayed they are updating the entire place. It looks great!
By this time my infusion was running and we started talking about my cycle. I should get a period July 22 or 23 and I will start birth control on day 2 along with my baby aspirin. I will then call her and she’ll go over when to start the estrogen and the Lupron shots. I’m so relieved that we are finally moving on. I’ve been on the bench since November and it has really sucked. That’s 9 months people and in the land of DOR that is NOT GOOD. Thankfully my AMH is up so I’m not feeling as bad about it.
I still really wish I was doing this during the summer so if it doesn’t work I’d have some time to process it. As it stands now, my retrieval will be around the first week of school for my students. This sucks as I am getting a new aide and a new half time special ed teacher with me. I hate leaving my kids with people they don’t know, especially the first week of school.
So that’s where we are. I’m about a week and a half out from starting birth control which will mean my IVF cycle has officially started. My 4th and final attempt to have a baby. Looking at my chart this journey has been pretty crazy. We’ve been trying since May 2013 and have been not trying/not preventing since May 2012. I’ve been through 3 IVF cycles, 5 IUI’s, 2 hysteroscopies, and a miscarriage with a D&C. All of that has been since January 2014.
I do think this is the longest time we’ve gone without cycling though so hopefully my body is good and rested. I’m slightly concerned because I’ve had some pain in my ovary area and am really hoping it’s not a cyst. I think I’ll lose my mind if I get cancelled due to a cyst.
So, I should be writing again in a week or so with more updates and will be more regular from then on since I’ll be actively cycling and there is always a lot to tell during that period.